Today is my 40th birthday. This was the view out my window as I woke. So in addition to my usual daily ritual of gratitude, this morning I chose to reflect upon this point at each decade of my life. As I remembered, it struck me that at each point, on the 27th of March 1975, 1985, 1995 and 2005, I was right at the precipice of huge change in my life, which would result in a whole myriad of feelings across the spectrum, from great sorrow, to great joy and everything in between.
I’ve lived so many chapters, indeed, so many lives, in this short 40 year stay on earth so far. What a gift to break it down to individual decades, and remember the decisions I made, and the events that shaped me and my life.
So what? My conclusion, and my decision as to how to consciously live my life for the next 40 years and beyond, was that, as Forrest Gump says, “You never know what you’re gonna get”.
So you may as well live each moment to its fullest, relishing the highs and fully feeling and releasing the lows, whilst staying focused on the vision for your life.
It’s good to reflect, and I love to share my learnings of reflection, with the intention that those who read may also learn something of themselves.
My Vision is to LIVE with, and in, LOVE. To make a difference each day (which I know I do, simply by BEING me), to LOVE the MOTHER, and to TRUST the FATHER.
On 27th March 1975 I was born. Mum’s labour was painful and long. Coming down that birth canal was a struggle, but I persisted, and I made it. I needed to be helped a little with some forceps, but I allowed myself to be pulled into this world, and placed into the arms of my loving Mother.
I had no conscious idea about what would transpire in my life. My Soul knew but me as a human, no idea! So all I could do was eat, sleep, cry, and be loved.
As I grew my Mother, who represents The Mother, loved and nurtured me, and I received all she had to give, which was a lot.
On 27th March 1985 – my 10th birthday – I was about to experience the sorrow of parents’ separation. I had no idea, as it didn’t happen until a few months later. This part of my life was painful, as a 10 year old, as I wrote in detail in Women Money and Intimacy, but it created a whole new life for me.
We moved back to my home town, and my loving Mother created stability and security for her children (sometimes at the expense of her own happiness and comfort), so we could grow, and I could discover what a strong young woman I really was. I would make new friends, reconnect with old ones, and move in to the next chapter of my life.
My Trust in The Father in this decade had dwindled somewhat, so sadly I did not receive all The Mother had to give. Possibly I did not appreciate it. This decade set the scene for the next one, which would show me just how one can lose their way when they begin to distrust The Father.
On 27th March 1995 – my 20th birthday – I was almost about to meet my first husband. I met him a week or two afterward. I was in my second year at university and I had a promising career as an army officer ahead of me.
In the next few years I would graduate from university, experience the death of my grandfather (the one man in my life I believed I could count on), graduate from army college, get married, break my right ankle, run away from a marriage because I had lost my voice, and get divorced.
On the flip side though, I would also graduate with distinction, be offered a successful career, be highly regarded by most I worked with, find new love, re-marry, and begin again.
What an eventful 10 years that was! Throughout all of it, The Mother loved me, and The Father was there – I just couldn’t hear him because I was no longer listening. Throughout this chapter of my life I had lost all Trust in The Father.
On 27th March 2005, I was about to find out that I was to partake in a miracle – the conception, pregnancy, and birth of an amazing human being. In that year I first started my business, and took a dream trip to Europe for six weeks (whilst pregnant), and gave birth.
My fourth decade in this world was a huge one. Here’s what I choose to remember:
– Moved home many times!
– Developed my skills and business in several locations
– Almost had another marriage break down, but didn’t
– Had a husband almost die, but didn’t, and return broken, but choose to rebuild himself and our marriage
– Begin an entirely new life
– Learn more than I could have imagined about how my DESIRE for life CREATES my life
– Wrote a book and reconciled my relationship with The Father, and therefore every man who has ever been, and ever will be, in my life
– Travelled eastern and central Australia, with only a ute and a camper trailer, with my family for almost 12 months
– Learned how to practice real magic
Who would have thought the fourth decade would be more eventful than the third decade?! But it was.
I BECAME a Mother, so RECEIVED the Mother even more greatly, and loved her even more deeply. I learned that, when I TRUST The Father, listen to my Inner Guidance, and take the steps My Heart asks me to take, He will always be there.
On 27th March 2015, I sit here on my 40th birthday, feeling completely blessed. I have no doubt it is what is inside of me that creates this feeling, and that has created my magical surroundings.
I’ve learned to Receive, Love and Nurture The Mother, whilst at the same time Trusting, Listening and Knowing I am completely Protected by The Father.
As we live our lives in this way, and reconcile the Mother and Father wounds we decided to create within as a little girl, we cannot help but CREATE MAGIC.
It is why older women, when they choose to live consciously, are so wise. Because they have learned from their experiences, and take them with gay abandon into their lives to discover what they can learn next. I’m proud to be a young, older woman, with an expanse of life experience. I trust that whatever comes next will be exactly what I need to create more magic in my life.
They say these days that ‘Life Begins At 40’. If that’s the case, I’m excited about the next decade and what it brings! I will never cease to be amazed, because I choose to live a life of wonder.
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